Every relationship has times of misunderstanding and hurt. We would do well to preserve long-standing relationships if at all possible. Ministry of saints and leadership operates in a realm of love.
Bless those who have blessed you with the outflow of God’s spirit flowing through you.
How? The fruit of the spirit in you is demonstrated by the attitude and outflow of your words and actions.
Measure you heart, attitude, feelings, and words with this passage of scripture.
Judge yourself in context of the Word of God.
“Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;
Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;
Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
Charity never faileth:” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
If that does not define your attitude and feelings toward members of the Body of Christ.
Your issues might be bigger than your criticisms of them.